I don't know about you, but I have been living in (what I've taken to calling) my "pandemic trance."
Just kind of . . . almost floating . . . through my days.
Going through the motions.
Not much focus.
(Concentration? What concentration?)
Nothing that I thought would interest me right now interests me right now.
(I'm sure this is grief.)
(I'll write about that another day.)
Time seems to have folded, somehow. I always used to feel that the saying "the days are long but the years are short" resonated perfectly with my perception of time. Now, that seems completely upside down! My days fly by, but the weeks just creep along!
Yesterday, Tom reminded me that we've only been at this social distancing/self-isolation thing . . . for two weeks! It feels like so much longer than two weeks. And yet, my days - filled with nothing much, really - are zooming past. Flying by, really. So. Weird. So very weird.
I'm ready to come out of my "pandemic trance."
I'm sick of living this way. (I'm talking about what's going on in my head; not the social distancing thing. I'm In It To Win It when it comes to the social distancing.) I need to take charge of my life again. I need to fight my way out of the fog.
So yesterday I started looking at "tools" that might help me plan my days and structure my time in more productive ways.
First, I reminded myself of Elise Joy's 3-simple-things method. It's not complicated - basically coming up with 3 simple things you want to do each day. (And I mean SIMPLE things - unload the dishwasher, put away the laundry, make dinner. That kind of simple.) I used to do my own version of this when Erin was a newborn. And again when I was in chemo. It works -- because it helps you create a "normal" structure in days that no longer seem "normal" or structured. It helps you get the little things done . . . which may lead to getting the bigger things done.
Next, I looked for some bigger-and-bolder tools for de-fogging my brain and (maybe) becoming a productive human again.
I found this: The Sequester Checklist from Black Cardigan Edit. It's a daily planner page specifically designed to help users find forward movement in these challenging times. It's definitely more . . . laid out and prescriptive than what I'd usually go in for, but I think it might really be a helpful tool for me right now.
And I also found this: A "daily page" format from artist Nicole J. Georges. (If you follow the link, it will take you to the artist's Patreon page. You'll need to scroll down to the heading "Recent Posts by Nicole J. Georges" and click on the drawing, then click on the side arrow for page 2. Kinda complicated, but worth it.) If you don't want to follow the link, her illustrated "daily page" has the following sections:
- 5 things I'm grateful for
- What is out of my control today
- What is in my control today
- What will I do for my body today
- How will I connect with other humans
- Can I help someone or be of service today? How?
- What 3 songs will you listen to today?
- Draw a quiet time.
- Free square (basically, anything else you'd like to say)
I like the planning/journaling combo in Nicole's "daily page." It's a little more ... free-flowing, and I think it could work for me.
There are 3 things (see what I did there?) that I think might help me . . . find a way out of my fog. Maybe . . . they'll help you, too?
And from the Look for JOY desk today . . .