As readers of my blog already know, I was diagnosed with and treated for non-Hodgkins lymphoma last year. I am in complete remission now, which is a Really Good Thing. But last year was tough. When Things Happen and you're suddenly forced to The Edge, you really have to dig deep. Down into your Personal Reserve you go. . . and you gain, for good or ill, a New Perspective.
On my trek to The Edge and back, I got quite. . . reflective. Generally, now that I'm in remission, I am more peaceful and calm. I'm more accepting and tolerant. I'm more apt to reach out a hand or talk to strangers. I think about things differently than I used to, and I notice details and colors and shadows that I must have missed before. I'm aware of the clock. . . ticking. . . but I don't care what time it is anymore. I pay more attention to my own rhythm now, and I'm no longer concerned if it's in sync with anyone else's rhythm.
And, maybe more than anything else, I'm more thankful than I've ever been. So, at this time of thanksgiving, I thought I might count my blessings. Out loud. I'm going to start with the things that I have in my life now. . . that I didn't have a year ago. Kind of obvious things. . . like. . .
Hair! Having it, I mean. Hair that moves in the breeze. Hair that you have to wring out after a shower. Hair that you can twirl around you finger while you think. Hair that you can decide to cut short, or grow out, or color, or not. I used to stress about Bad Hair Days, but now I just put on a hat!
Or. . . Health! The actual results of health -- feeling vibrant and robust and rosy. Jumping high and twirling around and sweating. Routine exams. Plenty of water. . . plenty of rest. . . an apple a day. And having your doctor say "no sign of cancer."
Or. . .Carpe Diem! A whole new attitude emerges. Why wait? Do it now! Take the day and wring every last thing out of it. Bite off more than you can chew . . . and then chew it. Figure out what you really want, and then figure out how to make it happen. Seize the Day!
Cancer a blessing? Never; not a chance. But I am thankful for new ways of seeing . . . what wasn't there before.